Doubt

Today is the first day I have doubted myself.

I used the treadmill to run my 30 minutes today.  After the first 15 minutes running at 5.5 (11 min/mile), I kicked it up to 6.0 (10 min/mile) for the last 15 minutes.  I was dragging.  I was huffin' and puffin' harder than usual.  And, even when I tried to focus on getting my breathing under control, I could not. So, at 25:51, I went to hit the 'Pause' button...only I hit the 'Stop" button instead, ending my run. I'm usually able to push on through, but, today, I just could not do it. I got off the treadmill, walked around a little bit, caught my breath, contemplated being done, then decided to jump back on the treadmill, and finish out my last 5 minutes at 6.0.

<enter the doubt>

I thought once I walked around a bit, I would be fine to finish out that last 5 minutes.  I was wrong.  I was right back to my huffin' and puffin', STARING at the seconds and minutes as they slowly fell away.  It was hard.  I tried to focus on the thought of fitting into those skinnier jeans or weight loss on the scale, but it was a complete struggle!  If I can't recover and get right back to my running, how am I going to accomplish a marathon?!?  We shall see.  The good thing is that the marathon is not tomorrow, not next week, not next month, but next year!  6 months away!

I'll get there...somehow!


Today:

Weight: +0.4  Boo!

Workout: 25:51 minute run- 2.44 miles +  5 minute run - .48 miles   =   2.92 miles

Breakfast : 2 eggs scrambled with 1 slice American cheese

Lunch: None

Dinner: sauteed spinach with mushrooms and onions, 2 ( 4 halves) hot peppers stuffed with chicken/turkey sausage and cheese, 15 candy corns, a large apple with PB2, 2 crunchy Oat N Honey granola bars, 1 can diet CF coke